This Time Transient

This Time Transient

I sat

Watched the darkness

This time

Passed me by

Whisper in

the growling doom

With glow bug

Lights

Tiny murmurs mimic wind

 

I sat

Heard the wailing

This time

Deafness saved me

Parachute

Drop and float

On water

Ripples like a long silk cloth

 

Did Walk

And

Run

And breath

 

Did daylight

See

Blue button

Cloudlets

In a breeze

 

These things

Newer

Birthing scare

But I am

Still

 

As if to

As if not to

 

Morning

Comes

I am

Astounded

By

Seconds which

Do not punish

 

Did not ever think.

But now

I

Bask:

 

This time the darkness

Passed.

 

I waved.

 

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Random Detritus

In contemplation of objects. In search of simplicity. In creation of minimalism.

Studies of the random things that people no longer need.

 

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Fleeting – Part 2

It goes without saying that it’s been a while. But I don’t want to write about that. Before the long silence, the crisis of faith, and the months where I couldn’t even look at the camera, I posted a poem called “fleeting”. Now, finally, I am posting the series of images that goes with it.

I know that I like to write what is an abbreviated version of an artist statement for all of my works, but this one hurts. This is such a personal, honest and heartfelt series, and it has not had the best reception when I got up the guts to offer it to galleries and competitions.

Honesty is what I do, and what I believe in.

I will not ever be the most technically proficient photographer. I will only rarely be neat and clean around the edges. My cropping is eccentric. My focus is deliberately eschew.

Those are not the things I make art for.

Have you ever held your mother, or your daughter, your son or your father, or your brother or sister in your arms and realised how the time has passed? How they are fatter, thinner, taller, more stooped, stronger or more fragile? Have you pulled up your favourite memory of your family and found that it is blurred around the edges, or the middle is missing?

When you learn that someone close to you is suffering, and will suffer more, do you see a part of yourself start to fade? When they start to change beyond recognition and you need somewhere to turn, are there ghosts in the corner of your vision?

This is not just a series about my mother and myself. It is about all of those things and every other change and experience we have ever had. It is our past, present and our path into the future.

For we are Fleeting:

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Flux

Steady

Steady

Turning away

Turning Away

Turned her face

Turned Her Face

Us

Us

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Portraits

Once was

Once Was

Only have to ask

Only Have To Ask

Knowing

Knowing

Known

Known

38 years

38 Years

Seeking Solace in the Sea and Sky

I have been putting off posting this series for very strange reasons. Perhaps the strangest of these, for any who know me, is that I am out of words for it. I couldn’t originally figure out why. Words are things that abound in my head, and they flow from me remarkably freely. Perhaps too freely sometimes.

So why the block on this work? And then I realised. This is a work that springs from the moments in between the turbulence. When I am just sinking in to one breath and out of another, letting slip all of the myriad complications I like to add to my life, and indeed, to my art.

I wrote a poem, during the making of this series – a lovely, short, and bracing holiday at Black Head on the New South Wales Coast, where I singularly managed to fail in dragging myself out of bed so I could photograph the most amazing light show out to sea you could imagine. It is a failing of mine, that when it comes to early, late, or generally unfriendly hours, I am lazy photographer. What I did capture, though, was what I sought to, and how often does that happen? The weather, the wind, the rain and the eternal movement and complementary stillness of the ocean and the sky.

Time and simplicity.

Here is the poem, the images and the quiet expression of how it felt as I was:

 

Seeking Solace in the Sea and Sky

For there is solace in the sea and sky

 

when in the moments flicker

shadows

blending one into the other at

the limit of my sight

So water becomes air and

wind rolls in

toward the land.

 

The rain on my face

and the salt

down my throat

as I breath

the waves in time.

 

It is as if peace were a moving

changing wisp

which summoned with the tide

would only stay but such a short

and insubstantial

time

then sweep itself far

out of reach again

 

grasping and catching

releasing

and waiting once more

 

the wash with the water

swirls

the sky mists over

and the grey

envelops

 

my skin is tingling numb

as I am both lost

or found

Whole, yet

missing the intangible

 

as I seek the still perfection

of the line between.

 

I strive for the Horizon.

 

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A little bit of poetic wandering (and wondering) over the transience of our existence, and the power of our family ties.

 

Fleeting.

 

One second

It seems

No more –

Inward

And

Outward breath

 

Just that:

The past is gone

The present goes

And the future

Is a fleeting

Dream

As

I blink.

 

Grasping hands

Cannot close

Fingers about them,

They are

Insubstantial moments

Of extreme

Emotion.

 

A person

Might

Only be the

Memories

Clouded

By remembering.

I will lose them.

 

Please,

Not today.

 

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Winter Time – with a hint of chiaroscuro

 

 

It’s been a long couple of days shooting this series. With nothing really to “aim” for with it, apart from my own enjoyment. I really just wanted to shoot something that captured simplicity. Some more traditional Still Life, with produce rather than detritus, on two planes, the vertical and horizontal. Without complex heights, layering or position. Natural light and one reflector.  Without a “polished” background, something rough and in tone.

Winter vegetables and winter flowers.

Here’s what I came up with:

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The World Behind the Mask a Poet Wears

I’ve really put off writing anything on this blog about the main series that I am working on. Some of that is because it’s going to be a really long haul series. Some of that is because I’ve stalled on it at the moment – it takes so much time for each shoot, and my health and weight have not been good lately, which doesn’t work when you’re shooting yourself as the subject, and you can’t make yourself configure in the way you want to for your images… Some of it is a reluctance to say anything about it because it’s complex, and I don’t want to to have to explain it’s complexity until it’s complete, and it can talk for itself as a narrative.

But it will be a while before I start shooting it again, and I do want it to at least sniff the air a little.

It is, in a holistic sense, a series about what it means to take the journey of a poet. More specifically it references the poetry of Yeats, and it does so because as a poet I have sought out so many other writers and drowned myself in their words. I have lived their journeys as I have lived my own through words and verse. Yeats is one of those I consider who have a pull in their poetry that sucks me in the deepest.

When I was struggling to shoot, as I have been for all this year, I sat and read his later poems, and I thought, I know what these make me feel. Can I express in pictures to others my empathic reaction? That was how it started, just to get me shooting again, but it became so much more, as  I explored verse after verse the images became more about the masks I wear as I shoot and write, they were my experiences on a journey of words.

There is so much more to shoot, but here, briefly is a snapshot of the first narrative from the series, that of:

The Muse

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